Anyway, so to finish, Michael tore me up, he could not keep an erection due to the recent drug usage, trust me, I tried to keep it up, nothing would work. Instead, we caressed one another, held each other, slowly starting, and tenderly making love. He got me to sit on his face, lie in the 69 position below and above him, this went on for over 3 hours, then he just simply finished me off purely him working. WOW. It was simply amazing! After we finished, the newly cleaned and dried sheets felt as if they had just been taken out of the washer, we lied in each other's sweat-drenched arms for what seemed an eternity, holding each other, kissing, again caressing one another, and whispering our sweet nothings and I love yous.
This had included fingering of the vagina and anus, rim job and clitoral / vaginal stimulation and kissing with his tongue and lips. MULTIPLE ORGASMS.
---Afterwards---
I left the house, said Goodbye, I love you, and whatnot. Not one phone call all day from him, I was coming down emotionally. I saw myself going down the same fucked up path that I had before, so I was starting to doubt myself physically and emotionally. I finally called at 10 pm, no answer, so I left a couple of messages, then started worrying and fell asleep at my parents' house, going in late at night to cover my track marks. The next morning, LeAnna was looking for me, for the money for the till and because she was worried about where I had ended up. She went down to Michael's, I wasn't there, just Carrie's little red truck. LeAnna came to my house, convinced my mother to wake me up, then she and I talked about the vehicle in Michael's driveway. Honestly, I thought Carrie's truck was black, I was wrong. I took a shower, met LeAnna at the shop and went to his house, no one was there and he still had the movie rental on Salvador's account, the Hitcher.
We poked around the house for a minute and then I called him. He picked up. Was nice to me, I told him about the movie being late and he said he had it with him and was taking care of it. LeAnna and I went to Ingle's. We shopped around for a moment, then I came out to the suburban with the groceries, Carrie pulled around in her red truck and said in her obnoxious voice, "Hey!" I also waved and said "Hi." My heart sank. I was in a lot of emotional and especially physical pain all day!
After work, I stayed up until 5:30 am with Brandon and we just talked and talked some more. I was starting to miss Michael.
I wanted to kick myself in the ass.
I still do.
He changed his phone number.
---Yesterday and Today thus far---
We poked around the house for a minute and then I called him. He picked up. Was nice to me, I told him about the movie being late and he said he had it with him and was taking care of it. LeAnna and I went to Ingle's. We shopped around for a moment, then I came out to the suburban with the groceries, Carrie pulled around in her red truck and said in her obnoxious voice, "Hey!" I also waved and said "Hi." My heart sank. I was in a lot of emotional and especially physical pain all day!
After work, I stayed up until 5:30 am with Brandon and we just talked and talked some more. I was starting to miss Michael.
I wanted to kick myself in the ass.
I still do.
He changed his phone number.
---Yesterday and Today thus far---
He called me at 7 am. Told me he changed his number. Also that he missed me. I'm really starting to feel for him. I hate myself a little for it.
I went through the day talking to him on and off, he hardly got service on the job site where he was painting. I'm proud of him for getting a job.
I had over $300 worth of sales yesterday!
I shut down the store at 8:45 pm and rode by his place, her truck was there, so I didn't go down there. He called me shortly afterwards when Daren and I were in the movie theatre seeing Ocean's 13. We continued sending text messages back and forth. I was also texting Amber.
I told him I was coming over, I arrived 12:10 am. No vehicles, so I went to the door, no lights were on, I called for him, "Mike, Michael..." He stumbled out of bed and opened the door. We went back to his room, kissed, kissed again. Said our "I miss yous" and I flipped on the lamp, I smiled at him, he smiled back, we continued to kiss. I really did miss him. So, I asked him what was up, why was Carrie there all night, did they have sex, who slept where... and so forth.
She slept on the couch, he slept in the bed... she "wouldn't leave" ...
They did more methamphetamine. He worked all day, he was exhausted.
We snuggled up together.
Kissed, held one another. Exchanged I love yous. I felt so happy to be back in his arms.
We tossed, turned, kissed. Slept. Tossed, turned, snuggled, and kissed more. Almost had sex. Couldn't, because of my stupid period.
We lied together and talked while snuggling and fell asleep.
Woke up around 7:40 am, both of us sneezing and coughing a little bit; I'm assuming allergies.
Kissed, talked, snuggled, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 10 am. So comfortable, just lying there, I didn't want to go to work. Got up after holding each other and talking.
Went to the store, grabbed a $100 to get change. Cashed his check and got change at United Community Bank. Went to breakfast at McDonald's. Ran into a friend of his / customer of mine -- she asked how Carrie was acting -- NUTS.
Went back to his house. Dropped him off after snuggling a little bit, looked for an extra stash, then kissed and fooled around a little bit. He promised he'd be at the store in a little bit.
I went to work.
I've had about $200 worth of sales thus far.
I talked to Michael on the phone a couple of times earlier.
I received a text message saying "ME AND CARRIE R TOGETHER NOW" an hour ago. I called 15-20 minutes afterwards, Carrie picked up the phone, fucking sarcastic bitch.
She wouldn't hand him the phone.
I told her to have him call me later, she replied "I'm sure he will."
I hung up.
I talked to Amber on the phone.
I want her to go with me so that I can see with my own eyes and with moral support if they're together or not.
I'm waiting on her to show up. I pray that she comes.
I want to cry.
He and I had had great conversation -- an actual sober, loving conversation with one another last night and this morning.
I was happy again for a night / morning, now I'm crying on the inside while my eyes water.
Why can't I get a decent man that can love me for me and not have to go back to abuse and immature girls.
I'm depressed yet again.
I went through the day talking to him on and off, he hardly got service on the job site where he was painting. I'm proud of him for getting a job.
I had over $300 worth of sales yesterday!
I shut down the store at 8:45 pm and rode by his place, her truck was there, so I didn't go down there. He called me shortly afterwards when Daren and I were in the movie theatre seeing Ocean's 13. We continued sending text messages back and forth. I was also texting Amber.
I told him I was coming over, I arrived 12:10 am. No vehicles, so I went to the door, no lights were on, I called for him, "Mike, Michael..." He stumbled out of bed and opened the door. We went back to his room, kissed, kissed again. Said our "I miss yous" and I flipped on the lamp, I smiled at him, he smiled back, we continued to kiss. I really did miss him. So, I asked him what was up, why was Carrie there all night, did they have sex, who slept where... and so forth.
She slept on the couch, he slept in the bed... she "wouldn't leave" ...
They did more methamphetamine. He worked all day, he was exhausted.
We snuggled up together.
Kissed, held one another. Exchanged I love yous. I felt so happy to be back in his arms.
We tossed, turned, kissed. Slept. Tossed, turned, snuggled, and kissed more. Almost had sex. Couldn't, because of my stupid period.
We lied together and talked while snuggling and fell asleep.
Woke up around 7:40 am, both of us sneezing and coughing a little bit; I'm assuming allergies.
Kissed, talked, snuggled, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 10 am. So comfortable, just lying there, I didn't want to go to work. Got up after holding each other and talking.
Went to the store, grabbed a $100 to get change. Cashed his check and got change at United Community Bank. Went to breakfast at McDonald's. Ran into a friend of his / customer of mine -- she asked how Carrie was acting -- NUTS.
Went back to his house. Dropped him off after snuggling a little bit, looked for an extra stash, then kissed and fooled around a little bit. He promised he'd be at the store in a little bit.
I went to work.
I've had about $200 worth of sales thus far.
I talked to Michael on the phone a couple of times earlier.
I received a text message saying "ME AND CARRIE R TOGETHER NOW" an hour ago. I called 15-20 minutes afterwards, Carrie picked up the phone, fucking sarcastic bitch.
She wouldn't hand him the phone.
I told her to have him call me later, she replied "I'm sure he will."
I hung up.
I talked to Amber on the phone.
I want her to go with me so that I can see with my own eyes and with moral support if they're together or not.
I'm waiting on her to show up. I pray that she comes.
I want to cry.
He and I had had great conversation -- an actual sober, loving conversation with one another last night and this morning.
I was happy again for a night / morning, now I'm crying on the inside while my eyes water.
Why can't I get a decent man that can love me for me and not have to go back to abuse and immature girls.
I'm depressed yet again.
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