Another Saturday.

What can I say? Just another LONG day at work... we've got amazingly uninterrupted spouts of pure leizurely time on our hands.

I've seemly cuts all ties with Daren, my Jehovah's witness EX. He was a user, about 14 years older than me, shallow, and extremely hypocritical, especially when it came to the sexual orientation of others, I mean, whatever makes others happy, then let them do it, they're not harming anyone. He's got a lot of homosexual tendencies after all, so he really shouldn't be judging anyone, certainly after I read his religious texts -- he's far from holy according to scripture. The last straw was his coke habit getting out of hand last weekend; I mean if I want to go and see my brother that's one thing, when it becomes a trip to "score," well, that's just disrespectful to Ro and I both. Ro and I had a very intensive conversation about Daren's addiction... we've agreed, that cold turkey, no more phone calls, no contact period with him. I miss that really mysterious, just darling man that I was dating... that is, before his motive was discovered and his addiction fed again.

If you cannot feel like yourself without a substance, then what's the point of living? I mean, I've been down that road, still have some extreme issues with meaningful relationships/romantic love. I don't think I'll ever be able to fall in love again. After Nick's death in July of 2006 (of a Xanax overdoes) I just feel empty and unable to truly "fall" with anyone; yeah, and the recent falling back into usage did not help. So, I may be physically attracted for a minute, however, it soon ends without any kind of notice. I thought I had that under control but there's a feigning for at least the physical part of a long-term relationship a little bit. I've developed an on-going love affair with Vitamins for one thing, after the battle the illegal substances, I never knew that I could at least find a similar up-and-atom feeling from something you buy in the supermarket.

It's absolutely spellbounding how circumstances can change within the blink of an eye. Alright, we have an hour lunch off the clock where I put forth all of these hours; and my co-worker, Nikki, asked if I would like to go to The Gazebo... it's this adorable restaurant that yes, does indeed feature a rather large gazebo. I said yes, after all, there's this adorable waiter there, Adam, that I have actually known for years from prior fast food laboring. Well, of course, I had to say YES! Well, it was very good. I'm a vegetarian, so of course I asked for the half veg sandwich with bowl of veg soup, which was the soup du jour. Adam was a trip, he was so funny, Nikki was even checking him out... lol. Let's see, he asked why we hadn't made plans to do anything yet (in my mind I was like "WTF"?), thinking that he was joking about a week ago when I saw him last... He was always such a kidder after all. Hmm, so I "got his digits."

My mother's 47th birthday is tomorrow, my father and I have bought 0 gifts, oh dear, he gave me a wonderful idea though... new robe... it's got to be blue and velour, despite warmer weather coming our way. So, Calvin and I? or maybe Jason and I are going to Buford after work to go shopping and get my roots redone.

Tomorrow, however, Calvin and I are attending Jonathan's, who is Calvin's adorable boyfriend, graduation in Dalton, erk, I love Jonathan, but I volunteer for the wackiest shit.

Got 5 more hours left on the clock, I wish the wait times were as long as they were this morning, as Jonathan would say, "It would be fabulous!" I've got a client on the phone right now, looking for something, playing some hardcore R&B, then cuts back and me "Are you there?" "Yes ma'am, I've been waiting on you to find the number." "Oh, NO you haven't, I've had it the entire time on my screen." Sometimes I just want to strangle clients... Some people should not be in this line of work because of their lack of intelligence and people skills. Sometimes I just want to scream, "Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, Banana Phone..." That would be hilarious, well, at least to me, I'm sure corporate would have a different opinion on the matter.