Realizations...

So, after an unusual night among friends from past and present.... things were said, tears were shed, and all of us drunkards were put to rest.
I am awfully thankful to the listening ears of Kristen, without her I would have no light on my situations currently!

But after all was said and done, everything was talked out and a huge realization of the one person that would be mine forever came into view... my Kevin.
He purely accepts me flaws and all unconditionally and constantly keeps the peace in our relationship. I could not imagine a life without him at this point and I know for a fact that he will be an outstanding husband and a perfect father to our children. In fact, I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him!

Even though there are irritants and insecurities in our relationship our bond is something that I cannot just give up on when there are hard times like I was contemplating earlier this week... giving up would just be too easy, just letting something die that we both wholeheartedly put so much of our heart and souls into should not be tossed away as if it were a receipt from the grocer.

With all of that said I believe after all the trials, mishaps, and adventures in my life I can honestly say, I have found that one individual that I could share anything with, without a doubt.

It was quite relaxing to have the time after we got Kristen and Charlie safe at their abodes to talk about the silly things that were making us both feel insecure... like Charlie's remarks or Kevin's 27th birthday being yesterday... no matter what, he's mine, I'm his... we are each other's addiction and the most beautiful person to one another. I feel safe, comfortable, and loved being with him, in his arms, listening to his deep, sultry voice... I've never felt something so natural that it was like a part of myself being born just by beginning this relationship with my sweet beef farmer... it's amazing how God and Love work.

God Blesses us all in ways that we are somewhat blind in reception of.

Having the moral support from my family and friends has made this an incredible experience. I feel like I have the power to complete anything since I have love backing me 100% of the way, it's a confidence I would have never expected at any time in my life.

Good night.
God Bless.